It is that time of year again, when school is done and I am very disoriented. I have no idea what I want to do right now and no one to do it with. Other than going to pick up a paper tomorrow at noon and going to dinner on Friday with the JET programme as a meet and greet sort of thing, I have absolutely nothing to do until I work on Saturday. As much as I usually dislike going to work, I can honestly say that I dislike doing nothing more. At home it seemed that there was always a bit more "nothing" to do, but here in Winnipeg I can go to the legislature grounds and read, read on my balcony, read by the river, go to the forks and read. I could also go and meet people, but I don't even have the energy to get on a bus right now. All I feel up to doing consists of being alone, lying in bed and waiting for Friday. But this only makes me feel like I am wasting my life, like I live a useless existence. I don't even have a job where I feel like I am being useful. Last summer working with special needs clients seemed to give me a purpose, a reason for existence, as I saw them grow cognitively, now I just serve coffee..... well, that's my rant for today, maybe I'll start on more Japanese learning, or something.
~ Justin
