It is that time of year again, when school is done and I am very disoriented. I have no idea what I want to do right now and no one to do it with. Other than going to pick up a paper tomorrow at noon and going to dinner on Friday with the JET programme as a meet and greet sort of thing, I have absolutely nothing to do until I work on Saturday. As much as I usually dislike going to work, I can honestly say that I dislike doing nothing more. At home it seemed that there was always a bit more "nothing" to do, but here in Winnipeg I can go to the legislature grounds and read, read on my balcony, read by the river, go to the forks and read. I could also go and meet people, but I don't even have the energy to get on a bus right now. All I feel up to doing consists of being alone, lying in bed and waiting for Friday. But this only makes me feel like I am wasting my life, like I live a useless existence. I don't even have a job where I feel like I am being useful. Last summer working with special needs clients seemed to give me a purpose, a reason for existence, as I saw them grow cognitively, now I just serve coffee..... well, that's my rant for today, maybe I'll start on more Japanese learning, or something.
~ Justin
3 comments:
*hug*
I'm glad you're here.
You should see my life. I wake up and watch a movie or downloaded tv show...have lunch...go to work...come home...watch a few more movies or read a book....weekends are where I have a social life.
I was going to write something here, and it was getting kind of profound, about how you probably don't like your job partly because of how people treat you there as opposed to your former job. I was also writing about how societal values are imposed upon people because of where they work making them feel valued or not.
Bottom line: life is what you make it. Many times people feel like they're wasting their lives, and that they should get out of the house more and whatnot. Even if you're working at a job which has turned your labor into a cog, it says more about the capitalist system than it does about you!
Your concept of usefulness has several assumptions. You assume the importance of money in employment, the need for purpose in employment and the need to be appreciated in employment. Labor is still labor, no matter how specialized it becomes. While I understand the importance of liking your job, it's also important to think about the difference between living to work and working to live.
But like I said, it was more profound before my dad bothered me, and caused me to go for a walk to my friend's house, where I put off studying for finals by playing rock band. Oh, and I'm in the peg later this week. Perhaps I'll call.
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